So New Years hasn't been this exciting all important holiday for me. Ever. During my single years I did enjoy going to the New Years Eve dance every year. However, it was more about being with great people rather than ushering in the New Year. Call me a party pooper; I just don't care. Les asked me on New Years Eve this year what I did on New Years Eve before he came along. I was honest. I told him other than the dances during the single years that I would watch the news at 10 to celebrate the New Year coming to our country and then sometime before midnight I would go to sleep. I rarely stayed up to usher in the New Year in my own time zone. I think my answer surprised him. At the same time he looked a little relieved. He even told me, "So I guess marrying me didn't change that for you huh?" Honestly no. Les is very similar in that respect to me. Since having kids I have found that it was more important to get the sleep while I could than feel like I had barely gone to sleep when my kids come bounding into our room so they can have breakfast. Believe me if I could have kept them up late enough to make a difference I still wouldn't do it. I enjoy my sleep and I feel a whole lot better about myself and the world in general when I get up earlier. For my kids this is vital. I am very sure that they would rather me be well rested and happy than tired and get mad over every little thing they do. Yeah, so that is the reason. I do it all for my kids. ;)
After talking to Les about the lack of celebrating New Years in my life I had a terrible thought. What am I going to do now that I am on the East Coast? The only way to continue celebrating New Years when I comes to our country now that I live on the edge is to actually stay up until Midnight! Oh the unfairness of it all. So this year I gave it my best try. After getting the kids in bed I sat on the couch to watch Les play a video game. I knew the only way to keep Les awake until midnight was to let him do something that would absorb his attention so much that the passage of time would surprise him. However, my tired brain needed more than that. I was soon asleep. I didn't sleep because I remember waking up a few times and asking Les what time it was. Then I finally woke up to the sound of fireworks and knew that the New Year had come at last. I wished Les a happy New Year and then quickly faded off to sleep. I still woke up from time to time to see Les playing away. At some point (I have no idea what time it was) Les lost his game and took me to bed. The best part was we didn't have church until 1 so sleeping in was an option. Sort of. The kids woke up at their usual time. I felt like I was dragging the whole day. In fact, we barely managed to get ready for church in time dispite all the extra time. By the time Sacrament Meeting ended I had a massive headache. To make that so much more attractive I also started my new calling which is in the Nursery! Yea for me and my head. Oh boy did I ever pray that I would make it through the day! My prayer was anwered and my headache went away. However, it came back with a vengence after we got home. I know! I forgot to pray that it would stay away. Here is a lesson to be learned: being specific when praying is very important. Make sure you include every contingency. Before we left church we had heard that the Bishop had gone home early due to pain from a ruptured disc in his spine. Emma was very upset. She had me put her hair up in piggy tails and was hoping to get some remark from the Bishop (who calls her Bacon and she is a self proclaimed PIG). Les told her it would be a very nice thing to bring something to the Bishop's house to aid him in getting better. It was settled that we would take over a plate of cookies the girls and I had decorated the day before. By the time we did this I had been lying down and felt much better. So we all went thinking it would be a quick drop off and go type thing incase the headache came back. Instead, we were hurded into the house and we talked with the family for over an hour. By the time we left the Bishop didn't look good and needed to lie down. I too was quickly fading and needed to get back into a horizontal postion.
So how is that for a New Years Day. Anyone with a better story? Anyone with a worse day?
Oh almost forgot. I don't remember much about setting New Years Resolutions when I was younger. As I got older I set a few. Between failing at my own and hearing of many others who had failed as well I simply stopped setting resolutions. I figured that I could change myself anytime of the year I had a strong enough desire to do so. I didn't need to wait for the New Year. Well for the first time in a long time I felt the strong feelings of change at the New Year. So I set a few New Year's Resolutions. First off, I am getting myself back on track with doing FHE. This last week I sat down and planned out 12 lessons. I will continue planning them out for as long as I can. I found that trying to come up with a lesson each week was my down fall. So now that the lessons are planned I can almost garantee that I will do at least 11 more FHE nights. That's right I have successfully done my first FHE of the year already. I am counting on Les helping me to get through as well. He is much better at making sure things get done. I am also counting on his help with each lesson. He has this amazing ability to explain concepts in a way others will understand. I am hoping that he will help me convey the message of each lesson in a way that our children will readily understand.
My second resolution is to say my personal prayers morning AND night. I have failed at doing this for quite some time. Before Christmas I was saying one of the two prayers and I noticed a big difference in the way that I approached life. I was calmer. I was more collected while dealing with the fighting and pouting that my kids do each day. It was a great feeling! So as I set out to say my prayers both morning and night I have great hope that I can be a better mother, wife, and member of the human family. I have been successful everyday of this year so far. Les has been very helpful in making sure I haven't forgotten my prayer each night as we get into bed. The mornings have been easier since I haven't set a specific time by which to do it. If I don't get out of bed and immediately pray I usually get it done while my kids are taking turns using the bathroom. I find quite moments in which to express my gratitude to my Heavenly Father. Oh I also noticed that my prayers have become deeper and more meaningful. I have been able to express myself fully to my Father in Heaven for the first time in a LONG time.
So that is it for my resolutions. I can't set too many at a time because I can quickly get overwhelmed and fail at all of them. I have a plan to make these goals into a habit and then work on adding more things to it. I feel that is the only way for me to accomplish any of my goals for this year.
May the New Year bring great things for all of us.
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