Just keep going

To update:  I have another doctor and I took the glucose test again.  I failed.  A week later I took the three hour glucose test.  I got the results a few days ago.   I passed but just barely.  I do not have gestational diabetes.  I do have a sluggish metabolism.  I have been ordered to stay away from sugar for the time being.  For any of you who knows my husband that is easier said than done.  I have been experiment with ways to consume food without all the sugar or things that break down into those same sugars.  That may be the hardest part.  Almost everything has one sort of carbohydrates or another.  I am relatively safe with proteins and fats.  However, meats aren't all that big on my list when pregnant.  Don't get me started on fats.  I thought I would be safe with vegetables.  Apparently not.  They have substantially less but they still have them.  I can eat three servings of vegetables to every one serving of fruits, dairy, or grains.  The grains are the hardest to stay away from.  Breads, pasta, crackers etc. are some of my main foods while pregnant.  They are simple, fast, and filling.   I have struggled with this and it has only been a few days.   I am trying to learn to substitute crackers and breads as a snack with nuts.  I love nuts but I can see that I could easily overdo it and come to hate the sight of them. 
So that is life for me for now.  I just have to keep telling myself that I will do anything to keep this baby happy and healthy for the next two months.  I know two months is nothing when it comes to the big picture.  Even in pregnancy two months is nothing.  Except for the last two months.  Every pregnancy I've had the last two months seem to drag.  When I got the results and realized I had to slightly modify my eating habits for the next two months I wanted to cry.  Wanted to cry because two months seems like forever away and cry with relief that I do not yet have to do this for the rest of my life.  More incentive to up my exercising (as if I needed more) routine when this baby is here.  Okay, as soon as I can after the baby is here.
I have always been able to feel empathy for situations others have been in.  Here is Heavenly Father giving me one more chance to improve upon it some more.  I know we are each given trials for a reason.  I just pray that I will learn my lesson before this situation becomes something more.

Our Divine Constitution

So I mentioned in my previous post about some mixed feeling while listening to God Bless America during the fireworks show in Logan.  I felt a deep abiding love for my country.  I also felt a deep sadness for the road we are finding our country headed down.  I have heard several reports where people within our goverment have made comments about the Constitution being outdated and in need of reform.  If these people truely loved this country they would see the importance of this document.  It hurts to see their hatred for something so wonderful and sacred.  I get it that they don't believe in God.  Fine.  That is their God given right to believe so.  Yet, they are trying to get everyone else to see things their way.  Last week, the new RS president in our ward gave the lesson on President Benson's talk, "Our Divine Constitution."  I highly recommend that you read it here. 
Furthermore, on September 17, 2010 Elder Oaks gave a talk titled "Fundamentals of Our Constitutions."  In it is this quote,  "President J. Reuben Clark, an honored authority on the Constitution, declared that 'our allegiance run[s] to the Constitution and to the principles which it embodies, and not to individuals. All that we say about the Constitution and our reliance upon it depends upon the rule of law and not of the men or women who hold the offices under it.' "  This is something that I fully agree with.  Therefore, if you are against our Constitution then you are against my country, my God, and you are against me.  I pray everyday that the people of this country will wake up and fight to save our Constitution and our country. 
Here are some other talks to read from church leaders on the Constitution:
The Divinely Inspired Constitution - Elder Oaks
Fundamentals of Our Constitutions - Elder Oaks
Seeing the Constitiution as Covenant - Lynn D. Wardle
Just and Holy Principles: An Examination of the U.S. Constitution - Avro Van Alstyne
God's Hand in the Founding of America - Elder Perry
Wise Men Raised Up - Frank W. Fox and LeGrand L. Baker
The Constitution - A Glorious Standard - President Benson
The Miraculous Constitution - President Benson

There are so many more to be found on the church's website.  It is our duty as citizens of this great nation and members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints to study the Constitution and the Founding Fathers.  There is much we can learn.  There is much that others are trying to change.  We must preserve the truth and defend our Constitution.  I pray that God will watch over and guide us as we do this.  May our Father in Heaven preserve our nation.

A little update on a stressful situation

So for my last post I felt that I should get a few things off my chest.  At the time I just thought I was being inspired by Heavenly Father to help me let go of some emotion.   Believe me when I say I did just that.  However, there may have been more to it than that.  The very next day my sister-in-law Jana called me up and let me talk it through.  Then she told me that they had thought they got rid of all of their son's old clothing but had found a box that slipped through the cracks at her parents house.  Can you guess what size they are?  They just happen to be 0-6 month clothing.  I cried when she told me.  I knew then that while it was good for me to get the emotion out it was also inspiration to get help.  Thank you Jana for helping Heavenly Father answer prayer.
As for the rest of the stress . . .  well let's just say it has thrown me up and down through a whole lot of emotion.  Les and I have been all over the state as well as into Virginia looking over possible places to rent.  Most of the ones we really liked that were in our price range either didn't feel right (when we prayed about them) or didn't have anything coming open within the time frame we were looking at.  I know I have cried over this situation but what really gets to me is the look of stress this burden has given Les.  He blames himself for not being able to properly care for our family.  He forgets the main reason we looked into buying when we came here was because a mortagage is cheaper than rent is.  So now that Heavenly Father has told us we need to rent at this time rather than buy he should know that it isn't because he is a poor provider that we are in this situation. 
Today we made a decision that we are acting upon.  On one of his days off Les is going to get help moving our stuff to a storage unit.  Then he will take time off of work and drive the girls and I to Utah for an unknown length of time just to fly back to go to work.  At this time we are unsure where he will be living.  It makes me cry just thinking about being separated from him.  I want him there by my side when I go through labor to bring our son into this world.  I want him there with us as we adjust to the day to day things of having a new baby in the family.  I don't want him miss a day with us or his son.  While I felt right about this arrangement I am having a hard time with it despite that.  Like we have heard before, "I didn't say it would be easy but it will be worth it."  The only comfort I find in this is that my kids will not have to live in a hotel or (thankfully) out of a car until something else comes along.  That knowledge is the only thing keeping me going right now.  I still have to figure out what I am going to do about a new OB.  I'm not sure my kids will be able to be covered by Medicaid while we are in Utah (which frightens me). 
So that is the update of where we are.  Not pretty but hopefully for the best.  I will do what I can to hold my precious family together.  They mean more to me than my own life.  May God watch over us and keep us safe.  May we be able to follow the path He is trying to lead us down.

My children can learn!

How many of you have wondered if the things you teach your kids are actually sticking in their little heads?  I am constantly amazed at the things that they pick up on.  Equally amazing are the things you teach them over and over that they never seem to learn. 
Then comes moments that show you that they are learning.  In fact, they do seem to learn well.  Last night after we gathered the kids for prayer.  Les asked the girls who would like to say the prayer and Emma volunteered closely followed by Khloe.  Our previous rule was that the first volunteer got to do it.  Emma is always the first one so she always gets to say the prayer.  Now that Khloe can talk more I suggested that she get to be the one to say the prayer.  Emma of course pouted but when asked if she would help Khloe say the prayer she immediately brightened.  Now when Les or I help the kids with the prayer we whisper the prayer to them line by line.  Emma knows how we do this so she leaned over and whispered to Khloe, "Say Heavenly Father."  Khloe in turn whispered it to the rest of us.  Then Emma looked at us with a look that clearly said so what now?  Les leaned over and whispered for her to tell Heavenly Father what she is grateful for.  So she told Khloe a list of things she was grateful for.  She was grateful for her family, our house, and nutrition.  At this point I was trying to smother a laugh.  When she ran out of things she was grateful for Les told her to ask Heavenly Father for what she needs.  She told Khloe to thank Heavenly Father for her family, the beautiful day, and for a good nights rest.  Then Les told her to end by saying, "In the name of . . ."  and that is where Emma took over.  She told Khloe to say, "Jesus Christ, Amen."   Since Emma and Les were between Khloe and I it was hard to hear what she was saying.  I did however hear the last bit.  Khloe managed to say, "Chist, Amen."  The love and pride in my heart was so great.  I know I am doing something right.